Patients with no patience…

I touched on this yesterday but in reality you choose who you have in your life.  This was a topic that we had a discussion with the other day in our group.  “Cancer patients having no patience for people”.  Ok, so that was the topic per se but I came up with the title… haha you know I’m just quirky like that 😉

In my life before cancer I would try with family and friends and I was the one always putting everyone together and always wanting the picture perfect family etc.  After being diagnosed and having my life change so much I have come very far.  In the last 16 or 17 months from being sick and going straight down I have made the slow climb uphill.  I have worked my butt off one step at a time with a share of dips in between. When the sickness began in 2011 and going through the changes in 2012 I have a new outlook in 2013 and first priority I have said I have made is my health.  This also means the people I surround myself with.  I am not going to stress out about this person or that whether they are blood or not.  I am not going to be dragged in to peoples drama especially when I am several hundreds of miles away. My husband and I have made a conscious effort to decide who we will keep in our life and who can go, blood or no blood… there is the door. 😉  You can call it a no-nonsense attitude.  No times for games, no time for wasting time.  Life is so short. I am the type that would rather have a small circle of really close people than a million friends in which I am not sure who I could trust.  Who has the best intentions.

With all of that said… I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!!!!!!  I appreciate my “cancer family”… the people who have come into my life since diagnosis that are just amazing human beings and my awesome friends who ARE my family. 🙂  xoxo  love you!

CORRECTION from yesterday.  I was told the calendars are on sale for $20 but I guess it’s $22 for shipping postage.  If you did not see my comment yesterday about where you can send a check for the calendar if you are interested in purchasing one then here it is:

Ashley Thiel
PO Box 34403
Washington, DC 20043

This postal box will only be available for a month or 2 because I am getting a new one in a more convenient location with better hours than business hours which is a nuciense and also a postal box rather than my house because I am moving very soon and want all my mail going to one place.  I will send the calendar to you or Michael will so be sure to have your address on the label or included.  Thank you!! 🙂

Happy Wednesday my friends

xoxo ~Ashley

Patience…

Patience. They say patience is a virue right?  I try to be a very patient person because it’s a very good quality and the older you get, generally, the more patient you become.  My patience was tested today with several things.  It was tested when I went out on a brunch date and my date made a phone call almost immediately after getting to the place and left me to eat alone for an hour.  It was tested while waiting at a store in line for over an hour to pick up 1 single thing I already paid for (that they tried to charge me $891 for but I paid $20 online, say what?!).   It was also tested when I saw a screw in my tire after the long amazing (sarcastic tone) day I’ve had.  I am not the type to get worked up easily and having this trait really helped today.  I mean, working 9-1-1 you do learn how to calm your nerves in any situation.

When you have cancer, your patience will be tested.  You will endure a roller coaster ride of your life and many times you will find that if you are  patient, things have the tendency to work out.  I know I’ve had to remember this in my journey.  I had times where I tried so hard to do a holistic approach to work with my chemo and to eat the right foods, take supplements, get the adequate exercise and sleep needed to boost my immune and blood.  Then, I’d get my blood drawn and would be so let down and heartbroken because I felt like I failed.  I know many will say I don’t have control or doctors will say there is nothing I can do,  I don’t believe this but I try to remain patient and keep trying.  If you you’ve been on an uphill and start the downward slope, always try to take the ride as smooth as you can.  This can and will really test your  patience, limits and strength and even your ability to think clearly.

It’s been a long day for me and I’ve been patiently awaiting for this time today – nighttime, pjs  & relaxing!  I hope you all had a good one!!

xoxo ~Ash